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omg i havent written in sooo long, i actualy 4got i had a lj, or maybe i have a life. well yesterday was soooo much fun at wendy's. i now LUV korean music, and so do bus drivers, cynthia's chinese teacher, and my brother.
it's sat nite, we all know wats happening :S. a little freaked out, AAAAAHHHHHHH. it'll b fun aahhhhh im gonna pee myself...whoops
no details given, so sshhhhhh don't ask, can't b a hypocrite now can i?!?!
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[27 Jan 2005|06:12pm] |
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wow i haven't written in awhile. like a month or so. but ne wayz...wat's new with me u ask? well since ur dying 2 know,
got new coach, Andrew, says mate a lot even though he isn't australian
in ice show soon, man those tryouts were tough, but it's worth it, i just wish they weren't making me skate on a lower level so i can't do ne ammmmaaazzing stunts, like my double sow.
on exams right now, and surprisingly not freaking out, had chem 2day went really well and my english exam of course, which is a joke. and gotta study bio this weekend with fatty!!! and hopefully get a cartilege soon...fingers crossed but i gotta go study math
btw heather i found my glove, and i luved r phone talk last nite, bout ur english questions, i enjoyed that ever so much !:P
btw boyr r stupid, and my mom supports me becoming a lesbian, she told me, i don't think i would enjoy that option though
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[03 Jan 2005|05:36pm] |
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well amazing new years! i think every1 would agree, except maybe Kirin,i dunno bout u buddy. but ne wayz, guys thnx 4 teh peer pressure ( u no wat im talkin bout) cuz i needed 2 do it ( u no wat im talking bout there also) lol.
ya so new yrs was really fun, and um...let's say meeting new ppl, certain ones in particular, ahha, (u no wat im talking bout) wow i luv saying that. but i don't wana invest 2 much into it, cuz it mite not work out, but hey it was fun. and it was nice 2 have something 2 finally get over other shit, cuz i didn't tell ne1 i was still hung up on it! kept it inside, like um...a balloon filling up with water,...interesting image there!
well ne wayz, great nite girls, party's at my house next time maybe, if my parents ever leave goddamit
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| carie this is 4 u doll face!!! |
[22 Dec 2004|10:21pm] |
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my little jelly bean.. ha this is my journal dedicated 2 u, like a shrine 2 u, let's think of it that way, but how bout less lesbainish!!!
so ne wayzzzzzzz.... i want u 2 call me sometime, and when i say u i mean i want miss cleo 2 call me plzzz. heather's being a poo and she won' call me. so i called her a b to the h izzo itch
hha
so when ur done playin w mr bradshaw give me a call sweet thang!!! hopefully my brother will answer, maybe u can tell him 2 start living as a gay woman :P
kk so newayzz. luv u carrie, and u better make ur entry bout me :)
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| well i did it |
[21 Dec 2004|11:38am] |
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finally got my g1. man once i had the right book it was sssooo easy. and i went driving, scared the shit out of my mom by "going 2 fast" ha as if there was such a thing as going 2 fast lol.
YAY
and on another subject, heather gots guts. told some guy i liked him, but hey even though i got turned down a little bit, it felt good 2 just come out and say it, Cynthia i believe ull remember that time at the bus stop, i think u were there when i went up 2 that random guy and told him that i liked him. sometimes u need 2 jsut make a complete fool of urself!
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[17 Dec 2004|07:34pm] |
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omg omg steve is back! finally, i didn't c him for like a month. i had my lesson on thurs, awesomeness, i know that isn't a word, but it is now! and hopefully i will have more lessons in the future. it'll b awesome! and guess who almost landed an axel, that would b me!
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| happy happy happy birthday |
[05 Dec 2004|07:23pm] |
wow i haven't written in a long time.
been busy
cynthia happy birthday, ur finally 16 squirt (thats wat my mom calls me!)
well have a great day and ur party was so much fun, and surprisingly i didn't eat that much! shocking i know hha so hope u have a great day, and i sent u a b-day card btw, i tried 2 find santa baby, but no luck so ull have 2 send that 1 2 me! hha ttyl!
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[09 Nov 2004|09:25pm] |
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something if fucked w the live journal so i dont know if this entry will go in. so i won't write much so u don't miss much!
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[02 Nov 2004|04:58pm] |
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I HATE math. u know how ppl always told u 2 never say hate b/c it's such a strong word, well bring it out here cuz HATE is the perfect word for how i feel about a lot of things
one good thing that happened 2day i made the volleyball team!!!!! that's something that i need 2 play even though ill have no time 4 it. I think my whole world would collapse if i didnt have volleyball 2 keep me sane.
well off 2 do some bio and chem and math that i dont fukin get, done my english though YAY?.
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[22 Oct 2004|05:47pm] |
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well i don't really have a rant 2day, i no its shocking, but i did have a tough week. busy busy bee, lots of scoring, ;), not like that u dirty ppl. hhhaa, and watching ppl fall a lot (cynthia). but i think im becoming a better person, i no more shocking news. Getting over things is 1 of the hardest things ever, and accepting things is maybe even more difficult. It's been tough, but u just kinda wonder, when am i gona get over it, cuz i wanna b done w it and move on.
But newayz, i now have my stupid bio project 2 do, on monday or maybe wednesday, um..ill settle on tuesday. and i got a math tutor, finally. It helped so much i dont care about having one, he's funny, let's c so far, we've had, oohh bother, and the best yet, "is that a cry of jubilation?" no jokes, he's a weird 1!!!
ne wayz, g2g now, lots of homework 2 pretend 2 do, ill probably get 2 it by sunday maybe.
O i almost 4got, i have a skating test on sunday, which is beyond scary, and something that i really don't need rite now, stupid coaches. But i got 2 try it ne wayz, and i know ur hoping i fail carolyn adn heather, thnx 4 that, hopefully ill prove u wrong though!!!
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[13 Oct 2004|05:47pm] |
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well instead of my weekly rant, i dont really no wat 2 write, i dont really have that much 2 rant about except for all the tests we were given to study 4 over thanksgiving.
My entry 2day is more of a sad note, well i cant decide how i feel, sad is definitely 1 of those things, i have the tears 2 prove it, but also angry, i dont deserve this, and there is no reasoning for wat happened. It sux and honestly i dont want 2 deal w it, i wanna go back 2 how it was, me being dillusionally happy, and not worrying about ne thing except skool. I guess i had fun while it lasted, but i dont want it 2 b over, but he doesnt want me ne more, so i guess it has 2 b over.
I found some quotes on the internet that i thought were good, and made me feel better, somehow, im not sure how they r kinda depressing, but hey if ne 1 is heartbroken let me no, cuz im going through it rite now, so here's some quotes that i found:
"Wanting him is hard to get. Loving him is hard to regret. Losing him is hard to accept. But with all the hurt I've felt, letting go is the most painful yet"
It was never love that broke her heart it was losing that love that tore her apart.
This last quote is so him and i, but obviously 4 him the option is that he never liked me
"If two past lovers remain freinds, they are either still in love or they never were."
ok and just a final thought, i no that ppl think im making a big deal out of this, but no 1 understands, that could b the worst part, that i am alone in this, ppl think its not a big deal and u no wat, im sure it wont b a big deal in the future, but rite now this is tearing me apart, and the 1 thing i dont wanna hear, is "well u weren't really going out" doesnt mean it doesnt suck ass, and doesnt mean that im not upset over it
and im not suicidal about this, i no in these things i always sound suicidal, but im not, just a little depressed rite now, i want him back, but slowly im realizing that's not gonna happen, but im not there yet, so bare with me until im ok again, which may b awhile.
Plz comment and give me some advice 2 help me
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[10 Oct 2004|12:11am] |
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I had turkey. I don't know why but i just luv thanksgiving. I couldn't b w my family this yr though cuz they r all 2 busy w other ppl, we had my unlce over though. The best part, PIE, i luv pie.
Neways, skool has been busy, lots 2 do. Teacher's r such bitches, who gives students 3 tests rite when they come back after a mini holiday, not very thankful if u ask me.
I danced w steve on thursday, so worth the wait!!! I'm in 4 testing and im scared shitless, Heather and Carolyn understand how i feel.
Well it's weird, but i dont feel so stressed rite now. somehow i always get things done, so y worry. But i am just distracted, i can't concentrate on ne thing. My mind is turning, and this time the hampster isn't dead (it's an expression). I need 2 learn 2 cope w other things going on in my life, which im not doing so well w so far, just constantly worrying about if things will work out, and if im doing the rite thing. Tres difficile!!!!!!!
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[30 Sep 2004|08:23pm] |
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well i haven't written in awhile, but i have been busy u c! homework, homework and lots of it. Another reason is cuz i didnt have a lot 2 write. Well now i do. its thursday and i had a lesson w steve, wow it was amazing, more dancing, and yes.. i was looking, no wedding ring!!! my chances have just gone up lol. But there r a lot of decisions pressuring down on me, not gonna name all of them, but deciding wat im comfortable w would b the hardest. I don't wanna go all the way, but certain ppl r pressuring me, we will c after this weekend wat happens. Feel free 2 give advice on this matter. Also cynthia and kirin ur rite, i am addicted 2 msn, but i still do my schoolwork, except chemistry, thats cuz no 1 cares though, maybe if my teacher knew wat he was doing i would do it!! Neways, cynthia scoring w/ u was fun the other nite, hhhaaa except 4 r ghetto style of doing it, hha im so gansta, kk im gona go rough up some gang members of mine,
take it easy yo!
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im very bored, i don't wanna go 2 skool 2morro, but only 4 sciences, then off 2 fatima's house. YAY. I can't even think, he's in my thoughts, if u read the last entry then u'd no who. And i'm excited 4 this saturday, get 2 c every1, it sux having 1st lunch, im barely friends w/ ppl nemore, they have all made their little cliques, haaha. We just need 2 find a ride home, Kirin, aaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhh! i dont wanna do it, and neither do u, so we will b abandoned there! o well, i could live in laser quest!!!
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[15 Sep 2004|09:27pm] |
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omg i have never met ne1 so hot. gorgeous is the only word, well there are a couple more i can think of, but ill tell u when ur older. I was so close 2 him, and he kept on putting our hips 2gether, it was hot as nicole ritchie would say. I don't want 2 make certain ppl jealous, so no more, but until next thurs, i will always b thinking of him, and our sexual dance (lol)!!!
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| life is yucky |
[15 Sep 2004|07:34pm] |
well, let me start of on my rant. life is hard, 2 much homework, like 3 hrs a nite, 4 classes in a row, and certain betrayals. I've gotten in fights this week, not fun. I wish ppl wouldn't make me decide things, i dont wanna make nemore grown up decisions, let me b a kid, i dont wanna work, grow up, i just wanna shit in a diaper all day, haha.
K enough said, skating time, with heather and carolyn, fun fun, i wonder who we will make fun of 2nite, molestor guy, or maybe ill finish carrie's solo (wet dog) LOL
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[12 Sep 2004|12:18pm] |
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it sux that we r back at skool. Even more sucky that i have 1st period lunch. wat the hell is that, wat fucker in guidance decided 2 give me that. Its awful, but ill deal, i tried 2 change it, but no luck. And now i have no classes w/ ne1. Every1 has lunch 2gether, but not me!!! Next semester i have it w/ cynthia, which is good, Im gonna go 2 the mall 2day w/ her, YAY, sry 4 the gay outburst.
I have so much freakin homework, at least 3hrs a nite, that sux, and don't even get me started on my math teacher, the point of being a teacher, is 2 do just that buddy, TEACH. he obviously has no idea how 2 do that. UGH
k this is makin me mad now so im gonna go b4 i blow up!!!
Confused,
Heather
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